Now you see me for who i am.

Oh here's something. I just went on a drinking marathon and believe me the ending was wicked. I gave up halfway cus a rat kept disturbing me. A RAT! It kept following me everywhere. I freaked out of course and so Sof had to do something. We killed it in the end. The rat died.

Good news, i've been smoking less. It gives me this nauseating feeling every time i smoke so therefore nah-uh i'm cutting down. Besides, it gives us bad breath and we stink like really really bad.

So now, as i thought that everything was finally going perfect in my confused life, it turned out shitty again. Everything i once knew was going down hill. Just as i was beginning to really be happy and carefree something terrible has to always happen. I hate it. Why do i have to suffer so much.

Does god really hate me so much! Okay fine i deserve every little shit you gave me. I was such a terrible person. Im disgusting. Ugh! I disgust myself. Omg! Look at me go! Im in front of my laptop just trying to figure what the hell i'm doing with my useless life.

I have nothing. I have no one. I swear. I do not need this from you. Can i rip my heart out and just start being heartless. I WANT TO BE THE ONLY HUMAN ALIEN WITHOUT A HEART full stop!

GREAT! I just ripped my heart out.

I'm officially heartless everybody ♥ ♥ ♥

vammoose!